I have a different guy to f*ck every day this week… Z— from Omaha today, R—- from Lincoln tomorrow, A— from South Dakota Thursday, and E— from Wahoo Friday. And R— wants to see me again sometime… if I fucked every guy that wanted me, I would never get out of bed. It’s almost too easy. The hard part is finding a regular playmate. I want M— but he doesn’t want me… I have to get over my obsession with him… I know I could fall in love with him but he doesn’t feel that way, I’m just one of many to him… and to his credit, he’s been completely honest and never pretended anything different. It’s just that no one else has f*cked me so well… yet.
I even took the risk of driving up to Omaha to see him last Friday, after the car died on my way up there the week before. That time he told me I could stay the night… he didn’t offer this time. So I feel like I got cheated..
Chatting with one guy, texting another, and waiting on a third to come f*ck me… crazy.
And now I’ve met someone I like and of course he lives even further away, he’s in Iowa. He’s going through a divorce and has 2 kids. He is hot, sexy body and beautiful tats. Argh. Always attracted to the wrong guys. Ironically, like M–k, he’s from Cali, he got moved to Iowa at 14.
M— hasn’t been on fling all night, which probably means he’s with some chick. :(. Got to move on.
My horoscope does say to play this month —
You should be feeling frisky in the first part of the month as the fiery Aries Sun lights up your 5th House of Romance until April 20. This is a great time to play and have fun in your personal life. While you’re likely to be in an adventurous mood, it’s important to be sensitive to those around you. That’s because your enthusiasm might overwhelm people and your possible impatience or impertinence could rub someone the wrong way.
Still, it’s hard to keep yourself from being outspoken and direct about expressing your feelings. If you can temper some of your impulsivity, you’ll be more appreciated by others. Of course, avoiding individuals who aren’t willing to have fun is another way to skirt potential problems. This solar transit isn’t necessarily about stabilizing or building a long-term relationship. Pleasure is more alluring than commitment, which is fine as long as you don’t deceive anyone, including yourself.
Falling into fantasy and misreading others is possible, however, when loving Venus forms a spacey square with drifty Neptune on April 6. Appreciating the magic of the moment without concerning yourself about where it will go is a good way to enjoy yourself without unrealistic expectations.
Venus’ entry into your 7th House of Partners on April 3 is another invitation to make playful connections. Discerning the difference between a meaningless flirtation and a deeper emotional engagement is key to avoiding confusion for you or the other person. Attractions and moods are too changeable to take very seriously this month.
I’m going to hell….but at least I will have fun doing it. I suppose the novelty of the power of being able to pick and choose is going to wear off eventually…but until then, I am going to play.